Bridges

The HIPEC team is meeting this week- tomorrow or Thurday, I’m not sure. PLEASE PRAY that the review goes well and the procedure will be available for me next week.

I have written/journaled a fair amount during this cancer journey. I’ve written thoughts, prayers, poems and short stories. I didn’t want to write or even think about FEAR. Facing FEAR is one of the worst things about my formidable foe. Denial won’t get me very far though. So today I contemplated FEAR. The following thoughts were formulated over several hours. The analogy of bridges came to me: comforted me and put FEAR into perspective. I will be AFRAID from time to time. So will the people I love. This bridge analogy will help- hopefully most of the time.

BRIDGES

I’m AFRAID of future bridges! Who will make sure it’s safe or hold the bridge to steady it? Alas, I already know. I’ll never need to cross a bridge alone.

I’ve crossed so many, built a few...some I’ve lingered on, some have taken my breath away and others have left me stunned.

Faith is a bridge. It supports me even when I cannot see it feel it.

Strong bridges use many triangles. Sarah, Erik and I are a triangular unit. Together we built a core structure that carried a terrible burden. This configuration supported a lot of weight and has carried us a great distance. That triangle still exists, but to God’s glory it is fortified by Ron, Courtney and Mack.

I’ve been on so many tangible and intangible bridges. Relax!

Wisdom from my kindergarten kiddos:

1. People who live in glass houses should never—be naked.

2. You can lead a horse to water but— you can’t kick it in.

3. Don’t cross a bridge until— your mom/dad says it’s okay.

4. Don’t cross a bridge until— you’re sure it’s not broken.

5. Don’t cross a bridge until— you look both ways.

Finally, a quote from C.S. Lewis (one of my favorite children’s authors)

And Aslan said to Lucy, “I will not tell you how long or short the way will be... only that it lies over a river. But do not FEAR, for I am the bridge builder.”